I never intended for my new painting hobby to be turned into the Marigold Morning affirmation deck. I started creating it during a dark time in my life and over time it evolved into a passion project of mine.
A couple years ago, I was in a dark place in my life while at the same time I was also approaching a new decade, the big 40. I felt inspiration that I can only describe as divine, as it was out of nowhere. I felt an immense drive to teach myself how to paint. I was never praised by teachers for my artistic ability as a kid yet I always felt I had a creative spark inside of me. The main theme in my life has always been hard work and having a rock solid work ethic. Although I have always had a nagging desire to express my creativity, it always took a back seat in my life. Until I created the first card in what would be known as the Marigold Morning Affirmation deck.
I was nearly 40 years old walking around the craft store feeling very embarrassed to be picking up paint and paint brushes when I had no clue how to use them. If anyone asked I was going to say I was getting them for my teenage son.
When I got home I didn't want anyone to see me painting because I thought they would think I was wasting my time and not acting my age. I ignored that horrible feeling in my chest and kept working. The first card I designed is the one below with the small blue ant sitting on top of the mushroom looking towards the sky with the deep orange colored sun on the horizon. Once I finished this first card, I was hooked. I enjoyed the process more than I ever expected. I found myself forgetting about all the stress I endured at my day job while I painted. The next surprising thing was the amount of support I got from my family. My dad asked me to send him a picture of the little ant painting so he could put it on his laptop as his background. I was shocked. I was wrong.
It was then that I realized I was no longer going to waste anymore of my life limiting myself to what I thought was acceptable for "someone my age" to be doing.
Overtime I turned 53 paintings into the 53 affirmations cards in the Marigold Mornings Affirmation Deck. I use these cards daily as reminders to continue to replace my limiting behaviors and beliefs with short positive daily affirmations.
I received an outpouring of support from friends on Instagram when I announced my decision to make this deck. I just want to say thank you to all you for your support and kind words of encouragement. Your kindness provided the necessary fuel to help me finish this deck.